It’s been an age since I last wrote anything. Looking back at my last post I wrote:
“2013 was a pretty crappy year. 2014 has got to be better.”
Well, it didn’t really improve much. I carried on working in the parish, just doing what had to be done and hoping that a job I was interested in would come up. I knew my heart wasn’t in parish ministry so was looking for something elsewhere. Unfortunately the job market was a bit thin and I ended up leaving my curacy with nothing to go to, and then nowhere to live.
Then, out of nowhere, the perfect job came up – THE ONE – the thing I had always wanted. I prevaricated over the application believing I wouldn’t even get an interview, nearly didn’t apply at all and then ended up writing it the night before the deadline over a pint in the pub! Well, the rest, as they say, is history. I got the job and moved into post.
For the first time in ages I’m loving, really loving, what I do. Honestly. Despite the fact that it’s not been easy. The knock on effect of the previous few years on my mental and physical health has been huge, but I’m definitely getting there. Now that I no longer get supervision (not that I had much of that before!) I decided to find some for myself, opting for psychotherapy. I’m not new to therapy but this is really valuable, learning to discover a sense of identity and personal values. I’ve rediscovered my mojo, and am finding my voice. There are more challenges to come and plenty of work to do on myself, but I find I am now looking to the future more and more rather than being trapped in the past. There are still things in the past that need dealing with as they stop me dwelling in my present and hold me back from moving forward, but there’s plenty of time.
Of course there will be plenty more challenges along the way but for now I’m in the right place doing the right thing.